there’s just something about summer that gets me in that mood. i don’t know whether i’m depressed, emotional or i just have too much time on my hand to think about so much different things. i don’t know. i don’t really hate it, i get to express myself through words and text better. but i don’t entirely love it, i hate that i don’t understand what i’m feeling.

i’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. life is a chain reaction of choices, and actions and words said blah blah blah you get the picture. so this must be happening for some reason, to clarify something to me, to show me something. all i can think off is that there is more to life than this, more to life than what’s happening in my life. and no, this is not a calling from God; i’m not gonna go all holy and become a priest. never crossed my mind, never hit me. but yes, i know and feel it’s like making me feel i’m in for and i’m deserving of something greater, something bigger, something more than what my life is now. 

i really hope it’s a genie or me winning the lottery.

Mood: Apathetic

Music: B.o.B featuring Hayley Williams - Airplanes