i’ve never doubted You.

i still believe in You, now and ever since then.

i’ve been good.

please don’t let me down.

please.

just a crazy 21 year old boy. one who loves to dream and think random thoughts. one who analyzes and sometimes(most of the time) over thinks the world around him. just a boy who is not scared to feel, not afraid to think and speak his heart and mind. just a young boy who is scared of becoming a man and growing up thus making it another year closer for him to enter the “real” world. by the use of this instrument or device he gets to relive, remember and cherish his innocence or the loss of such.

there’s just something about summer that gets me in that mood. i don’t know whether i’m depressed, emotional or i just have too much time on my hand to think about so much different things. i don’t know. i don’t really hate it, i get to express myself through words and text better. but i don’t entirely love it, i hate that i don’t understand what i’m feeling.

i’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. life is a chain reaction of choices, and actions and words said blah blah blah you get the picture. so this must be happening for some reason, to clarify something to me, to show me something. all i can think off is that there is more to life than this, more to life than what’s happening in my life. and no, this is not a calling from God; i’m not gonna go all holy and become a priest. never crossed my mind, never hit me. but yes, i know and feel it’s like making me feel i’m in for and i’m deserving of something greater, something bigger, something more than what my life is now. 

i really hope it’s a genie or me winning the lottery.

Mood: Apathetic

Music: B.o.B featuring Hayley Williams - Airplanes

and my head’s filled with all this pollution

Cause when I’m with you
It seems so easy
It seems so easy

- The Subways

Eyes pinned on you from across the room
Half-hiding, half-hoping
That somehow it gives me away, so I don’t have to say

- Angulo

What has love become?
(What has love become?)
It’s not like we used to hear in those old songs
And it’s not like yours
(And it’s not like yours)
What has love become?

Whoa…your love is a fast song
And I’m dancing ‘cause I’m loved again
Whoa…my heart is in motion
For the rhythm inside you
Whoa…your love is a slow song
It’s resounding through my world again
Whoa…my heart is in motion
For the song inside of you

- Copeland

This ride is drifting slowly to the side
We’re swervin’ off the road
Goin’ past the cones
That warned us from the start

- The Early November